The Calm I Seek


Christina Lourens

Christian Fiction, Romance

Published November 26, 2020

After the violent death of her husband, Rebecca Holmes is content leading a quiet life spending time with her sisters and niece. When her younger sister Hannah asks her to plan her wedding, Rebecca discovers her friends and family all think her life is empty. Determined to prove them wrong, Rebecca takes up salsa lessons where she meets the charismatic salsa teacher, Gabriel Rodriguez.

Falling in love is the last thing Rebecca wanted to do, but she is inexplicably drawn to Gabriel. Opening her heart again is terrifying, especially after what happened with her late husband. With the help of the local vicar, Rebecca starts to believe that maybe she deserves a happy ending after all.

Just when she’s decided to give her heart to Gabriel, a betrayal brings back demons from the past. Heartbroken, Rebecca closes herself off again, but when disaster strikes her family, she is forced to confront her past actions. Can there be redemption for her and can she forgive those who betrayed her?

The Calm I Seek is a heartbreaking novel about forgiveness and redemption.

My Thoughts:

I enjoyed this book. It got off to a bit of a slow start but once I got into it, I couldn’t put it down. Rebecca is so hurt and lonely, but she thinks loneliness is the only option for her. She is angry with God, and ultimately with herself. The theme of forgiveness that is woven through the book is especially touching. It can be a lot easier to forgive someone else than to forgive ourselves. As she worked through those feelings, her relationship with herself and others around her began to change – she could feel the peace and love we find when we stop fighting against God. The book was engaging, emotionally satisfying and exactly what I needed at the time. 

I received an advance review copy for free, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.